Hold, Kiss, Touch, Love

Everytime you Hold me,

hold me like this is the last time,

Everytime you Kiss me,

kiss me like you'll never see me again.

Everytime you Touch me,

touch me like this is the last time,

Promise that you Love me,

love me like you'll never see me again.

Factor Twenty-One and the Broken Time Machine

When things go from JUST NOW to RECENTLY to LATELY to LONG AGO and to ONCE UPON A TIME..

I believe everyone had that experience bofore? Perhaps it's sometimes sad to see things go from sweet to sour, from rich going bankrupt, and from hubby to finally he's in your "ex list". So, ladies and gentlemen, with my greatest condolences to myself, I hereby open my very first "account" in "The Bank of Ex".

What makes human so emotional? I suppose it has to be memories. Sweet memories that we tend to flashback during the sad days, memories that can no longer repeat in real life, memories that brings frustration, anxiety and most of all, disappointment.

Often enough, we tend to avoid having any contact with these memories which brings sleepless nights and all the mixed emotions. And one fine day when we accidentally bump into these memories, i.e, certain restaurants, certain cinemas, certain songs, and even certain brands bearing memorable haute couture names which somehow once featured any stage of your previous relationship, it hurts even more.

...

So I did an experiment, intended to break all the laws of "emotional healing" created by some love deficit disorder (LDD) monsieurs. I visited some most "sensitive" locations. A move which may led me popping sleeping pills to death even thinking about it on the night of 21st January, exactly one month after my birthday.

I remembered this building well. 23-26NOV 2007

I remembered the first time I walked through this corridor..

It's no longer the same as I walked through it today.

And hesitating whether or not to press the bell

in front of this door just 2 months back.

...

Room 1021

Ironically, it all started with the 21st room, and ended on the 21st day of January.

proven that my birthday wish on the 21st day of December didn't come true.

Result of the experiment?

Undefined.

SIN

DAY 1

DAY 2

DAY 3

DAY 4

DAY 5

DAY 6

DAY 7

"Practically nothing special,

not that i can recall now..

probably later :) "

it's 1:08 AM to be precise n jeff hasn't replied any of my calls or texts.

Was he on the Sydney flight?

I mean..did he got into the flight?

or something else happened before that?

like what happens most of the time.

i.e. his granny had something going in the hospital?

Will I see him in KL with Steven?

As told BEFORE he left for the door?

Guten Nacht!

(morgen)

Family Trip Pangkor

My last Moral Studies paper finally finishes at 4:29 PM on Thursday, 13th Dec.

Guess what, a 2-week break ahead, christmas and new year's day included!

Although some of the papers i literally just ran through it but..okay let's forget abt it for the next 2 weeks okay?

So here's Pangkor.. a short holiday with my family, namely daddy,mommy, and 2 sisters. :)

with sister- Chrystal

mom and chrystal; me and sister- Catherine behind

Daddy and Chrystal

me and mom

One thing is these resorts works very slow in serving food...

another waiting day..

But most of all, the family got to get together..that's good.

Do we need distance to get closer?

Apparently yeah..

Especially in a long distance relationship..

Not very long distance though..

We're just 202miles/ 325km apart.. most of the time..

At times, we're even 9400miles/ 15127km apart..

At some times, we can be -7inches/ -17.78cm together c'mon u know what i mean..

And of course, we can comfortably be <1m apart!

So, in order to get from 9400miles/15127km apart to -7inches/-17.78cm together or a comfortably <1m apart,

These will probably be the stuffs we most probably relate ourselves to:

sometimes this

sometimes this will do

This would be more economical and convenient if v're 202miles away.

This is cheap too but 7-8hrs for 202miles is not for me :)

Well....this one coming soon

hmm...with all those miles, kilometers, meters inches and centimeters between us, i guess i'll treasure you a lot more when we get together. After all, it is all these little (sometimes weird) things that made our relationship so special !

Miss you so much dear !!

The best weekend this year

Location: Impiana KLCC Hotel, Room 1021
Mood: Blessed
Sights and sounds: Sound of some jap boys moaning from Steven's PC :P

The bare fact is, there is no standard method of doing this. It is always the little things that happened between the two of us which makes our relationship so special.

The number of events that I've experienced, unhappy ones have forced me to have a different point of view in many things, relationship included of course. Well back to my story, I must say it is a bless for me that someone out there actually cares so much for me and really cheered me up entirely, after so many things I've gone through.

I quite like the way as we progressed to this point, which is not the typical 'meet and fuck' type, but rather it's pretty slow-paced, hmm perhaps we are separated geographically :)

I remember there's no phone calls between us for the first year, not to mention meeting up in person a few weeks after we finally chat on the phone. I have totally no idea how we managed to stay in contact with just an occasional " Hi there" message on MSN.

So, we finally met last weekend and I shall never forget the experiences we had and I'd never want to go back to that occasional " Hi There" friend on MSN. Thanks Jeff ! You've made my life at this stage!

10 Days vs. 4 Years

It's been more than 24 hours since I last logged in my blog and check it out.

Today Simon ran a google search on my name "caseyfoo" (don't knw for what reason) and found my blog's url on the first entry. I find it, in a way, kinda cool though..haha

Well, it's been a long day yesterday, woke up at 6:30 and finished my classes at 5:30, went for a hair cut, loitered ard the city and later went to my sis' school's performance. "Malam Sinar Gemilang 2007" at Hotel Istana, KL.

Although it is one of the lousiest hotel still in existance, and the worst food ever served in a so called "gala" style dinner, the performances by various artiste were good enough for a primary school's annual dinner event. i enjoyed most with Khatijah Ibrahim's show and the last time I saw her performing was on the same event, 4 years ago.

4 years! wow time really flies and all I can say is i'm a totally different person after 4 years...
Although I said I've changed alot over the past 4 years, that doesn't mean it takes 4 years to change a person's mind and mentality. After all, how many 4 years can we afford to waste??

As all of my previous posts ever mentioned, the list of events that happened recently has, nevertheless, changed my perception and views in certain things and in another way, I should even be thankful for these events to occur now rather than later so that I'm a better person right now.

If you've read my previous posts, recently i had a conflict with another person and our stands have been changing over the time. (i.e.. I was supposed to get angry 1st but later on i did something that turns out to have pissed him off)

I'm glad he'd forgiven me, in a way, but he still need time to get over it. But anyway, I think this issue should come to an end and b resolved and I'm really grateful it is finally not bothering me anymore. 所謂 經一事；長一智.... I really hope we can still be friends and we could put this issue away as far as possible. huGs.